Wednesday, February 25, 2009

My Mom

Today marks the 4 year Anniversary of my Mother's death. Just typing those words makes my heart sting a little. I still miss her.

My Mom was born Glenna Marlene Lambert on March 15, 1958. She married my father on July 3, 1976. She had me on March 1, 1978. She has my sisters on March 12, 1980. She was the heart and soul of our family. She loved endlessly.

I learned SO much from her. I learned how to cook and be a wife, a MOM. I learned from her struggles and mistakes. I learned that time is fleeting and nothing is promised. I learned that I HATE CANCER!! I learned to enjoy my kids...because they grow up too fast. I learned that housework and busyness will always be here...but memory making moments will not be. I learned to make my husband feel needed and appreciated. I learned that there is nothing better than popcorn and a movie. I learned that the smell of roast after church on Sunday is Heaven on Earth! She taught me these things by example...She lived these things.

On Friday, February 25, 2005 at 5:15am...I held my Mom's hand and watched her take her last breathe. I held my sisters and cried. I cry now.

I know that she is walking in Paradise with her Creator. She no longer hurts, or fears, or cries. She is healed. I am still broken.

I want to talk to her...I want my kids to know how wonderful she was...I want advice that only a Mother can give...I want to call and gripe to her how unfair this World is...I want her to meet Melissa...I want her to see how beautiful and loving Samantha is becoming...I want her to see Bubba's sweet heart and smile...I want her see how happy and in love I am...

Me, Me, Me.

We are taking our kids to New Mexico today to go skiing & tubing and relaxing. I pray that this will be a time of renewed strength and peace. I long to fill more days with joy through Christ and not things of this World...even Mom's...because they are all fleeting. I celebrate her this day. I miss her this day. And I will probably cry, ALOT, this day. But I find hope in Christ and in the scripture that was put on her headstone:

"To be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord" 2 Cor 5:8

My Mom is in Heaven, at the feet of Jesus. Blessed is His name!


Jodi said...

Sweet Crystal, I just sat here and cried with you today. Praying peace and comfort for you and your family on this day.... thank you for sharing your heart, and thank you for reminding me to go love on my Mom and love on our Creator, thanking Him for our blessings.

Kendra said...

Love to you Crystal! Thank you for sharing.

Sarah said...

Crystal, what a sweet post. I am typing through my tears. You are on my heart today as I know how these 'anniversaries' can wax and wane both ways of joy and sorrow. I love you and pray for a safe and memory making trip! Love you!

Anonymous said...

oh, sister.....i don't know how you do it!! you're such a pillar of strength!.....thinking of you on this day....hoping God grants you peace and strength to get through it, and thanking him for filling you with faith to do just that.....A prayer for you on this Ash Wednesday.....xoxo fabi

Garcia Family said...

Hi Crystal! Thanks for sharing...I bet your mom was an awesome lady! Iam sure she is looking down on you guys and is very proud of you and your lovely family! I bet she is rejoicing up there until you can be joined together again in the presence of the Lord! Hope you guys have a great vacation!! Enjoy!